No walk in the park

I thought it would be easy for me to do on this type of thing, but unfortunately
it wasn't. I begged him to give me time to think things out. He had no choice, but to wait it out. I wondered what my life would be like on the other side of things. Happy to know that faith was right there besides me guiding me to leave on my own accord. Brainwashing no more I said as I walked into another life that has been waiting on me to wise up and straighten out the beautiful mess that is my life. Forever always lurking within me.

killing me

I closed my mouth when you closed your heart.
This tension I feel when I'm with you is clear.
It hurts me so to feel this way so we may have to talk
soon. asap!

Walking on the Edge

I like to walk on the edge.
Testing the limits, Tasting the forbidden fruits.
Caressing the dark side of life.

Dangerously sampling life's not so pretty undertones.
I like walking on the dark side. Tempting fate, testing my
capabilities.

Walking out

I was almost half way out the door before you stopped me.
You wanted me to stay, but how long could I take this?
It made me sad to see you cry and plead.
You know I can't stand to see anyone in pain.

I have to do what's right for me and that is to move on.
On to big and better things.
My new life awaits.
Hope you can understand that.

Unconscious Mutterings

   1. Inception :: Is key
   2. Anticipation :: is liberating
   3. Space :: in time
   4. Earn :: my respect
   5. .com :: around sometime
   6. Hello! :: Goodbye
   7. Equivalent :: to none
   8. Swore :: an oath
   9. Actions :: are increasingly loud
  10. Expletive! :: behavior


Unconscious Mutterings

Jeans to Jewels

I traded in my jeans for a pair of high heels and jewelry to last a whole lifetime. I wanted to be her so that I could fill a space inside myself.

She wanted my jeans and tees life while I wanted her glamorous one. Together we lived a parallel life, only she was downgrading and I was upgrading.

It was sheer paradise until I became miserable and longed for my old life. Yes, I was happy to be in the lap of luxury, but I felt that my place was with me.

So I traded it all back and lived happily ever after.

Creation of you

If i painted a picture of your perfect
form it would not do you justice.

If words could show how much I appreciated you
then the expressions of verbs would be galore.

I often struggle with what to say, but the birth of such feelings
are many.

I am thankful for God creating a person as beautiful as you.